SZwanetz
bleunote's Cancer Blog
September 11, 2008
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Let’s see, where do I begin.
On Monday, after the fog sort of lifted I slept for what seemed an eternity. Tuesday I was determined not to let my life pass me by so I had a friend take me to run a few errands. Needless to say I got one thing on my list of 4 done and was passed out in my friends car on the way home.
I despise this! I miss my life and I don’t understand the reason for all this. I feel so left out of everything. I feel like a beautiful bright picture once admired now faded, cast into a back bedroom, propped up against a wall on the floor waiting for my removal.
Yesterday my neighbor, thank God for her, she is a nurse, came over to give me my shots. I have to take these Neupogen shots for 6 days after my Chemo treatments. They make me ache and I almost always feel sick to my stomach. I am getting so tired of being tired. It really makes you feel like you aren’t living, just existing.
I’m too tired to write everyone back today so, please forgive me. As much as I am trying to fight this, I can’t keep my head up. I feel foggy and tired all the time. What meds can I ask for to get rid of the foggy feeling in my head? Any suggestions.
I love you all and thank you for being here for me. I need you all.
Sonia
Thanks for your support -
Steroids… I hated them, but they got me up and moving. My doctor prescribed dexthamethazone (spelling?). Ask your doctor if you can take this or something else similar. I’m so sorry you’re feeling so exhausted! I can’t tell you how many times I laid in bed just wanting to close my eyes and wake up from this terrible nightmare that I had cancer. There will be a time for you as well when your treatments will be finished. Pretty soon you’ll be helping others on this blog who are newly diagnosed themselves and telling them how “you’ve been there.” Stay strong and keep your chin up Sonia!
hI Sonia, yes it is a terrible thing to always be tired and hurting,, maybe take advantage to you able to sleep for i am sure that after the treatmentsk, you will start feeling good again and then you probably won’t get enought sleep.]hehehe… Try to stay possitive about everything
When negative thoughts come to mind try to change them to be positive… Tha’ts is one of the way that i learned to go though my treatments. I would stay positive and happy, always with a big smile on my face.. It wasn’t always easy, but when i went for my treatments i always found that there was someone worse off then me, and so i would try to spry them up, either with a good morning and a big smile.. and i know that it rubbed off on a lot of peole…
No one said that it was going to be easy ,, but you make pleasant for yourself and while doing so others do the same…
So best of luck, and we will keep you in my prayers.. so that you recieve the strength and the grace to go through this
God bless Rayoflights
Sonia; one this is for sure your typing skills have not left you. Can’t imagine how you typed with no mistakes, feeling as awful as you do. I have no pointers for you but to let you know that we care, love you, and of course will rally to your side at all times. So glad to hear you have a nurse next door that can give you the stik. That would be most worst nightmare, having to do it myself, since I hate needles. Not sure about the steroid thing. I hear they are kind of hard to get off of, once you are on them. It is a gradual weening process but if they help with energy and appetite, which I hear they do, what the heck, why suffer to your degree. Doesn’t hurt to ask the Oncologist. Well my dear, I hope you find more energy, as you go along. I’m sure the first session is probably the worst. Hopefully someone who has been in your position might give you some pointers. Take care of yourself and really, sleeping beauty always needed her sleep. Weezie
Hi, Sonia.
How are you? Are things getting a little better? I have been completely wiped out also this week. I am mad as you are. I hate this! I hate cancer!
Let’s hope things will get easier for us soon. They have to be! We deserve more, we deserve to live and enjoy life once again very soon.
Hugs,
Yuyu
Your update brings back many memories Sonia. None of the feelings you are sharing with us comes as a shock to those of us who have been in the trenches of this brutal disease. Just try and keep your focus, slaying this dragon and living life to the fullest. Healing thoughts and prayers, Lily