SZwanetz
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September 7, 2008
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Tomorrow at 2 PM I have my first CHEMO treatment. I am so nervous because my tumor is growing rapidly. I can feel it getting larger in my breast. I am happy to begin CHEMO so that it will shrink. It’s been hurting this week and I can’t sleep without a bra on or I am in pain. I bought a thick, padded sports bra. It seems to be helping.
I freaked out when they tried to inject me with dye for the CT scan of my liver. During my first CT scan the dye they used caused my heart to race uncontrollably and I couldn’t catch my breath. I called ahead of time and asked them if they were any changes in the amount of dye they were using this time and they said no. When I got there they said they were going to use more dye. I know my body and I couldn’t handle it. There has to be another way. I know some people are allergic to the dye. What do they do then?
The next day I went back to try it once more. I took a pill to relax and after a 2 hour wait the tech told me she was not using any more dye than my first scan. I told her that the last tech said I needed more dye for this scan. She then said she’d better look it up.
Okay, now I am freaked out of my mind that this person about to inject me – hasn’t a clue as to what she’s doing. She came back after a few minutes and said I was right. She got a few more bottles of dye and began to load the machine. I ran out of there. I did not feel safe or confident that she knew what she was doing. I don’t know how they will scan my liver.
I feel like such a mess, such a wreck and so unlike myself-usually strong and full of life, now tired and scared.
Well, tomorrow will be here soon and hope my 1st Chemo treatment goes better than the last few days!
Thanks for your support -
I pray that you do well tomorrow and that your side effects will be far and few.
Hi Sonia,
I am here if you need me. I am glad you left with the dye thing. Something in your gut wasn’t feeling right. That happened to me with a catscan biopsy of my right breast. I left too. The Doctors apologized. I am here.
Kathleen
Sonia,
I will be praying and sending you positive thoughts tomorrow. I pray that everything will go smoothly and peacefully. You will be okay, you are a stong woman. We will go through this together.
I could also feel my tumor is growing rapidly. Mine was found to be 5cm x 4cm x 2cm. It was paining, and swelling, so I am happy I started chemo. I am doing something about it to fight it. Hopefully, it will shrink it small. As you were saying, too, I am too wondering why you don’t start Herceptin right away? I don’t know much about it, but they said it works great with Her2 genes like ours.
Hugs and Prayers,
Yuyu
Hi, Sonia.
Regarding arm port placement, it only took about 15 minutes in total. I was awake but they said they could put me sleep if I really needed to. They injected novacain and that was enough for me to feel no or very little pain, so I did not need any other anethesia. It was much less trouble than I expected. It did not hurt much at all. But, my arm hurt and swelled for next 5-6 days or so after the surgery until it got settled. But, nothing too major. It is now fine, I can’t even feel it is there :)
Yuyu
Dear Sonia; Please go to the website I am posting so you can get more information on your chemo. www.mayoclinic.com/health/chemotherapy/MY00170ng
I am so sorry you are having such trouble with your cat scan and the dye business. I just can’t imagine why the people who are in charge of giving you the solution do not know what happened on your previous visit. No wonder you left. Stick to your guns about feeling that you might want to do it later. I know you need the test but really don’t they have another alternative to a dye? If you had such trouble before is that not documented. You are so scared I can tell but just make sure you make your feelings well known before they do anything to your body. Take charge and make sure it is YOUR WISH that is provided for. That’s all I can say right now. Good luck tomorrow as we are all praying for a good day for you, even though it is scary. It has to be done, and yes, if you can feel your tumour growing, of course you would want the chemo right away no matter the side effects. I get that thought for sure. Be brave Sonia; we are counting on you to stand up to cancer. The hour show is on right now as a rebroadcast in case you didn’t see it on Friday. You can also go to www.standuptocancer.org to see the entire show. Worth the watch. God bless, I will be thinking of you tomorrow. Weezie
i don’t know how to email you to answer your requst for info on alternatives.
please search online NOW, it is imperative and will make a lot of difference.
if you can contact me that’s fine, i’m not a d or anything, just been watching online for years and see the natural normal ways help a lot for only a few hundred dollars (that’s why bigpharma won’t ever help you know the truth)
p.s. the dye they already used that affected you is 10,000,ooo times LESS TOXIC than the c you say starts tomorrow
Sonia sending healing thoughts and prayers your way. Remember this is your body and you have the right to ask questions and dont ever stop asking them. Do your research and homework. Blessings, Shalom, Lily
Hi, Sonia,
I hope you have an easy time on the chemo. My treatment was a lot like your’s except I had the lumpectomy first. I’m also HER2 positive and will be on Herceptin for a year. Other than losing my hair (it’s back now) and fatigue, I had a very good experience with chemo and radiation. I will be thinking of you tomorrow. Welcome to our family!
Hi Sonia,
Man, I’m really sorry for what you are going thru…chemo sucks no two ways about it….for me it was all about attitude and faith in the almighty….grab his hand he will get you thru this…I promise! You are most definately in my prayers….take good care and God Bless you and your family!
Sharon
See “cottage cheese flax”
through goodle search injun… :)
it is very good news for many.
(for 50 years in europe an easy and inexpensive alternative to posin)
especially helpful for those labelled terminal.
Close your eyes and reach out, take my hand and I will be there.
Love Sherri
Hey Sonia, first of all i want to let you know that almost everyone has a terrrible fear when they hear the word “cancer”,, but i have learned over the years that everyone has cancer but it the ability of your body to beat it without you even knowing it.. I will pray for you and your cancer, but mostly for God to give you the strength, and the grace to accept what you have and to try to continue for your to live your life as normally as you can.. You realize that it is all up to you on how you accept this,, i personally found that when i went thru my 37 radiation and 7 chemo treatment, that i had to be the most happy person on earth,, I had received two super great onconlogist, they were more like family to me than doctors.. You will have to have to trust them totally, as they really do known what they are doing…
So dear Lord i lift up Sonia to you and her desease of cancer. You are the great Physician and you are working through these doctores of hers
I ask for a special protection for Sonia, i as that you put her gardian angel around her that she may be protected.. but most of all i pray for Sonia to accept what she has but i also pray that You will give her the strength and the grace to go through this without fear, but instead to receive trust…
Keep you chin up Sonia,, you are not the first and will not be the last, but at least you know that you have the best onconlogist
So trust in them but mostly trust in yourself,
God bless …. Rayoflights