SZwanetz
bleunote's Cancer Blog
September 7, 2008
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Thank you all for the support.
I can’t sleep tonight. I find myself pacing about the house, cleaning up things that are already clean, refolding laundry, rearranging things in the frig, cleaning out my closet and a myriad of other things to keep busy.
I wish today would never end and tomorrows chemo wasn’t my reality.
It means so much to have you all in my life. I will go into chemo with a positive attitude tomorrow and fight the fight – knowing that I have all of your support to carry me through.
My mother called me today and said I am stronger than I know. It really struck me because that is what everyone here has said from the beginning.
I’ll write as soon as I am able once I get home.
Much love….
Thanks for your support -
I can totally relate to the anxiety you are going through. I pray that everything goes well for you tomorrow & that you have some peace and calmness come your way tonight so you are able to get a little rest.
Blessings Galore,
Monica
Hi Sonia,
I will be thinking of you today. I thought I was prepared and had done all to psych myself up for my first chemo treatment. I thought I was as ready as could be… but when they pulled out the “red devil” – doxorubicin – I have to admit, the tears started to flow. Just the color of this medicine alone was scary. My mother made me feel better by telling me to picture this medicine as tiny “red soldiers” being injected into my veins to fight off and kill the enemy. I guess this little story might sound sort of childish in a way, but visualization did help me to relax and breath and just let the medicine – the red soldiers – do its job.
I hope you are relaxed and ready for this day. I know it will be hard, but take a deep breath and look at the medicine as being your friendly warrior in this battle to kill cancer.
Good luck. I’ll be praying for you.
Hi Sonia,
You are doing a positive thing for yourself. I have to make cupcakes today for a fundraiser and I will be sending you positive healing energy.
Kathleen
Sonia; I hope you come home to a blog full of messages just waiting for your cute eyes to view. You know that tumour of yours is going to get blasted to hell and you will find that the pain in your breast will subside, maybe by the time you go to bed. That might be wishful thinking but you know you are doing the right thing so that is one positive out of this experience. I suggest you get some cammomile tea and drink that tonight to help you sleep. You just can’t go around without your sleep cause you need all the energy you can muster just to psychologically stay on top. Waiting for your first day’s details. Weezie
Sonia,
My thoughts are with you. The anxiety is worse than the treatment. I drove myself to and from the treatment. The nurses are terrific and hopefully your center has hot blankets. I loved having several toasty blankets during my treatment.
I will be looking for your after treatment post.
Melissa
Hi Sonia, your pre treatment note pulled at my heart, having gone through such similar feelings myself 16 months ago. I hope you arent offended if I uplift you in my daily healing prayers. Think positive, visualize the chemo as little pac men eating up the cancer cells. You WILL triumph over this disease! Shalom, Lily
Hi, Sonia.
Just wanted to let you know I am thinking of you. I hope things are going well with your chemo this afternoon.
Yuyu
I stayed awake 26 hours before my first chemo and I thought I was obsessing but later found out the steriods did it to me. LOL. I was on decadron and it always gave me crazy energy the first day, wish I could have bottled it for later in the chemo cycle. Much love to you.