bleunote's Cancer Blog

Sonia,

I am so sorry to hear that. I know pets are like family, it is devastating to hear your pet having cancer. What kind of dog and what kind of cancer? I lost my dog (a poodle mix)to cancer 8 years ago, they said it was cancer in his throat. I have to say it is unbelievable… your dog and you at the same time. I am so sorry, I hope you’re holding up. I will call you again this weekend. I just can’t wait for somebody to come up with total cure, it will save everyone including human and animals. I HATE Cancer!

Yuyu

Posted on November 14, 2008 at 10:01:01 PM by yuyu

Hi, Sonia:

I am so sorry to hear about your dog. It’s too much sometimes. I have two cats, one who I love dearly and the other is just here to pee on most anything left on the floor and to run up the vet bills. But, I wouldn’t trade either one for anything. I hope that your dog can be treated successfully and doesn’t have pain.
I’m glad your treatments are showing progress. Sometimes it just takes awhile. Hang in there; when you get finished with chemo, you won’t feel nearly as much fatigue.
Keep us posted.

Posted on November 14, 2008 at 10:14:17 PM by staypositive

Cancer does take anyone and everyone. What kind of cancer? Is your pup sick? Dogs can have chemo and radiation and surgery like us. For the most part they handle it better than us too. It always makes me smile when I’m at work and have to go down to RT. That’s where the CT unit is. Well, animals have to be anesthetized to get their RT. After they’ve had their treatment they get to wake up out on pillows an blankets on the floor so they can be seen easily. By the end of the day they’re all sleeping or playing together. Cancer brings these critters together just like it does with all of us here. Email me and I’ll see if I can offer any info for you. littleprincess1@hughes.net

Posted on November 15, 2008 at 6:40:48 PM by littleprincess

Sorry to hear about the pooch. I have two dogs and I would be heart broken if they got sick.

I will be keeping you in prayer….

Mac

Posted on November 19, 2008 at 7:08:29 AM by rigidridr

I am so happy that your tumor is shrinking! I know you were worried and scared (Ans, I know how that feels!), I am so relieved and glad it is shrinking. I am also hoping that mine wlll continue to shrink, possible to nothing, bye-bye. I go through so many different emotions also. I am depressed, angry, iritated, etc. I come here, vent, and share. I also think that I get emotional because I can actually feel, touch, and see the tumor (vs tumors that cannnot be felt). This nasty thing changes a tiny bit in any way, and I get emotional either happy, depressed, sad, etc. Anyway, hang in there, like you said, we are in this together!

Hugs,
Yuyu

Posted on November 14, 2008 at 10:08:41 PM by yuyu

Oh thats so cool victory is sweet ya!
Now you got a little now you got to use it
To get some more I’m hopin
Just remember have a little fun

Posted on November 15, 2008 at 12:11:31 AM by munro2

Sonia,
I’m so glad to hear that your tumor is shrinking, that is awesome.

I’m sorry you are going through so much physical and emotional pain. I do know that feeling and it stinks!

Are you taking anti-nausea drugs around chemo time? I know that I was and they have steroids in them and I learned that they can wreck havoc on the emotions. I was a total basket case for about a 3-4 days starting the day before chemo. there were times I did not write either, or was afraid to write and really say what I was feeling because it was so bad at times.

Please know that you are NOT alone. I’m sure many of us have experienced at least one or more things you are going through, so please, please write when you feel like it. This will give someone the chance to respond, especially if they can relate to what you are experiencing.

Big Hugs,
Wendy

Posted on November 15, 2008 at 7:00:38 AM by wildspirit

Wendy pointed out important facts about steroids. It is making me go crazy emotionally every night after I get my chemo! I can’t sleep and become very irritable and amped up. Then, I will come down from it in two days or so and become rather lethargic. We are go through a lot with chemo physically and mentally, don’ we? You can call me when you feel dumpy or happy, I go through the same emotional roller coasters.

Posted on November 15, 2008 at 8:05:42 AM by yuyu

Hey Sonia

I am so glad that your tumor is finally getting the hint that you are sick and tired of it hanging around. And Sonia, I really wish I had known about this site when I was going thru my ordeal….only WE here understand what you are going thru and can help you out during the tough times. Even the oncologists and their nurses are well intentioned caring humans, in theory only…becasue until they take 1 round of chemo or radiation can they fully grasp the pain…more (emotional than physical) that we experience while going thru this bump in the road. Sonia, I know you cannot possibly agree with what I am going to say right now, but you will someday…so here it goes…..cancer actually helped me in so many ways to be a better human. No, i don’t take shit so seriously anymore..Yes, when I see someone acting foul I step up and let them know. No, I don’t think my butt looks big….Yes, my husband and children come first now….Yes I pray daily…NO, I don’t hate anymore…Yes, I smell the roses now….Yes I’ve forgiven the unforgivable….and in 4 years you will be at the same place as I am and will be typing to someone who needs some encouragement on this blog….and you will realize that what you went thru has made you a great human being someone God can be proud of and welcome home someday. So Stay Rasta my friend and I continue to pray for you. And keep up the good work.
Sharon

hey Sonia,,, I am really glad that you have enough nerve to realize that everyone of your supporters are always totally with
Yes we also know that it had been a very rough time but do not forget the real reason we are here.
you cannot vent to just anyone unles they have been through it themselves,, they may say that they understand but as you an I know they have compassion for you but really do not understand
And so we are here because we have been though everything that you have been through and we understand the pain, the depression and everything else that goes along with it.
I have been really fortunate that i have given it over totally to God and put my life in His hands.
For whatever is to happen i cannot do anything about it except to stay happy with a big smile on my face .. I have had cancer since January 23, 2006 hey and i am still around to tell people about it .. it is not ease and no one said it was going to be easy but you must come to the realization that is why we are here… and also God does here you and all the prayers that go up for you.. No one can guarantee me that i am going to live another 20, 3o, years, even though i would want to ,, but hey you know that crossing the street is very dangerous especially with some of the crazy drivers we have out there so you must make a decision as i have and many have that this cancer is not going to beat you…
Maybe it is because i am so stubborn that i am alive today,, but truly for me i believe that God is keeping me his the palm of His hands.
Hey girl it is not ease but i have had faith all my life the only difference is since 1982 i had something happen to me that changed my whole life
a spiritual thing,, and from that moment on i have been able to trust God that He know what is best for me
Sonia ,, keep you chin up and keep on fighting hard girl,, and i am sure that you will be able to make it…
It is always a good sign when the tumor starts to shrink, and pray that it will either disapear completely or that it at least goes into remission
Your support group will keep on praying for you
Love you as my own sister,,, God bless Ray

Dear Sonia; I’m so sorry you are feeling blue, depressed, angry, and just plain not feeling great. Why is it that these chemicals play such havoc? Surely it is the poisons that are supposed to shrink that tumour. It bloody well better, considering what you have to go through in order for it to disappear, hopefully. Of course there are no guarantees but what other choices are there? Yes we have all been through a few of these conversations on the blog before. To do chemo or not to do chemo. Well you are there now, you have done it, and that makes it alright to just plainly shout it out to all of us. Yes, without a place like this home for us cancer people, I really don’t know where I would be?? Isolated, alone with my anger and depression and quite unatuned to how others with cancer were feeling. I will admit I have not had chemo, but after listening to so many that do, you have a big group who know exactly your pain and what you mean. On the other hand, I do know about the anguish mentally and I do know about other drugs that I am on and how they affect me. There is no easy road here, but there is love and understanding, which makes it a little easier to bear.
I do hope you start to cheer up and feel more like yourself in the coming weeks. It will get better, because I know you will want to feel better and that is what counts. How you will deal with the next few weeks. You know, one day, one week, one month, one year. That’s how it goes. Take care friend.
Weezie

Posted on November 16, 2008 at 3:16:24 PM by weezie

Sonia,

I am so sorry that you are going through this. Please know that you are not alone, and that there are many of us praying for your comfort and recovery every day.

Stay strong, stay hopeful and continue to believe!
Cindy

Posted on November 1, 2008 at 8:07:07 PM by texcin

I am sorry. I know it is tough.
My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Hugs,
Joyce In NC

Posted on November 1, 2008 at 10:04:52 PM by joyce

hi Sonia, I to am terribly sorry to hear of the pain that you are going thru,, It is no fun for sure,,but know something that i have done to help me get though the tough times. I don’t know if you are a Christian or believe in God.. The think that has helped me alot is to remind myself of the agony of Jesus and what he truly suffered for all of us. But i really took it on a personal basis to remind me what He has done for me and in that way i can always see my pain as something i that does’nt come near to His pain and in that way i find that the pain either leaves me or that i can at least manage it and that it is not as bad ..
Know this for sure, your support group is praying for you and that one day it will be all gone,,
then you will live life to the fullest because you have realized just how short and precious life truly is..
God Bless you and heal you in a special way

Posted on November 2, 2008 at 6:54:54 AM by rayoflights

Sonia,

I had pain in my joints with the Taxol as well. I take a product called Monavie Active. It is a little pricey $45 a bottle and I use 2 a month but it really helped with the joint pain. It takes 30 days to feel a difference. My bones ached like I was 120 years old. It was terrible but I swear the Monavie helped. Someone in your community should sell it.

I hope you are close the end of your treatments.

Melissa

Posted on November 2, 2008 at 8:42:36 AM by melsamei

Are you still having problems with your password? Jill

Posted on November 2, 2008 at 3:43:54 PM by jill

Hi, Sonia.
Thanks for the post! Yes, it is sooo frustrating to go through this hell and see my ugly mass not shrinking much. I am looking into going in for a surgery earlier to take it out. I am interested in knowing what the new doctor has to say. How is everything going for you? I hope you’re doing better with chemo.

Hugs,
Yuyu

Posted on November 5, 2008 at 10:28:38 AM by yuyu

Dear Sonia; So sorry to hear of your pain issues. You know how we all support our buddies here about speaking out, well I think it’s about time for you to corner your Dr.’s and get them to give you some real medication to help with your bone pain. After all, they are supposedly the professionals, don’t they have a list of things you can take for the side effects of Taxol? If not they are far behind the eight ball. It just isn’t right that you get pumped full of drugs, that practically keep you from functioning without a levelor. Keep pushing them to help, and go fishing on the internet. I think I gave out a website a while ago, where people on a particular drug, list what they do for the pain. If I find it I will send it to you. Take care my friend.
Weezie

Posted on November 13, 2008 at 6:01:17 PM by weezie